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July usually passes me by without too much notice, beyond the vague worry that there might be a Tiger attack on Colombo, and a few flashbacks to that weekend in 1983. But this time it’s been a bit different. I’ve found myself reliving that day a lot more this year. It isn’t the fact that this is the 25th anniversary of the carnage which most people see as the starting point of our war, though that has been the focus of a lot of attention. What did it was a phone call a couple of weeks ago.

My mobile rang with an unfamiliar number, and an equally unidentifiable male voice asked for me. When I confirmed that it was indeed yours truly, the voice asked whether I was an old boy of Wesley College. I groaned inwardly, and confirmed this too, expecting to be hit by my school’s OBU for a donation or offer of membership of some committee or whatever. However, it wasn’t any of these things, and the next question blew me away.

“My name is Cedric,” he said, “do you remember me?”

And after twenty-five years, I did. Passing comic books around class, hidden in textbooks. Playing Starsky & Hutch after school with plastic pistols. Talking about the merits of British fighter planes versus German ones, as we exchanged egg sandwiches for woodapple jam ones. I’d last seen Cedric in the sixth grade, when we were both twelve, just before the July riots. He was one of the very few boys in my class shorter than me, and was half Tamil, half Burgher, like me. But whereas my Tamil half came from my mother, Cedric’s came from his father, so in peculiar Sri Lankan fashion, he was classed a Tamil and I a Burgher, according to the paternal line. Our class was a Sinhalese medium one, though at least a third of the boys weren’t Sinhalese. The Tamil medium classes in our grade stayed away from us, and we looked at them with a bit of suspicion since they mostly spoke Tamil. Guys like Cedric, though, were one of “us”.

The thing is, Cedric disappeared in July ’83. Vanished as if he had never existed, along with most of the Tamil medium, which shrank to just one class in our grade after the riots. When we came back to school after things had calmed down, Cedric’s seat sat empty, and we never saw him again. Other boys in class told me that his home had been burned down by a mob, and that his family had fled to Jaffna. And I wondered if he had managed to save any of his comics or dinky toys.

In the months and years to come, as the war hotted up, a few of us sometimes idly wondered what Cedric was doing at the time. Some jokingly speculated that he might be now a Tiger. Maybe not so jokingly. Leaving school and joining the Army, I wondered whether he’d be on the other side. But there was no news, no letter, nothing. Until two weeks ago.

The events of Black July, and the days immediately after, are blurred in my mind, and not really in chronological order, flashes that vary in intensity.

School closes early with news of trouble in Colombo, and there is no way to contact my parents, so my nine-year-old brother and I decide to do what we do every Friday, and walk from Wesley College in Borella to the home of my grand uncle and aunt in Maradana. A Sinhalese classmate of mine joins us, as he does each Friday, since his home is on our route home.

Normally quiet Mount Mary, one of the quaint railway neighbourhoods of Borella is alive with tension, and people scurrying along. The three of us feel no tension or fear, however, having no idea of the magnitude of the event taking place around us.

Close to my classmate’s home, a gang of fairly normal looking men stand around handing out ice cream to passersby. Normal but for the knives, machetes and axes they all carry. The ice cream is in huge gallon-sized lumps, frozen and wrapped in plastic bags. A block of vanilla ice cream is thrust under our tennis-ball-sized eyes, but obviously preferring chocolate we ask for it, and to our astonishment, another huge block of the favourite flavour is forked over. Unable to believe our luck, my friend and I sprint the remaining distance to his home with our loot, almost forgetting my younger brother who trots after us, complaining at our sudden turn of speed.

Choking black smoke rises over the trees further down the road from the looted ice cream factory now being burned to the ground.

After lunch at my grand aunt’s, my father arrives on his Honda CG125 to take us home. He’s much earlier than he is on other Fridays. I sit on the pillion, and my brother takes his customary spot on the petrol tank in front of my father for the ride across Colombo to Mutwal where my Tamil mother is alone at home. The city’s in chaos. Gangs are breaking into shops all along Maradana Road and Armour Street, dragging out and smashing and burning everything that they cannot carry away. Armed police stand uncertainly at intersections, but don’t do anything. The streets are carpeted in broken glass and my father worries that he’ll have a puncture. Every so often a gang stops us and asks my father his name. Once they establish that we’re not Tamils, they demand petrol to burn nearby buildings. Each time my father claims to only have enough in the Honda’s tank to get home. They let us go.

My father normally buys us an Indrajal comic book — usually The Phantom or Mandrake the Magician — on the last Friday of each month, but today, the pharmacy on the corner of Armour Street is closed and shuttered.

As we approach the Kelani River, close to Grand Pass, the road ahead glitters with what looks like coloured marbles. As we get closer, we realize that the tar is littered with thousands of boiled sweets in bright colours, each one embossed with a star. Next to the road the famous Star Toffee factory is gutted and burning. My brother tries to convince my father to stop so that we can pick up some of the sweets, but my father ignores him, weaving the bike across the dangerous surface of half-melted sweets and tar.

We cross the river and turn left at Grand Pass. Near the Muslim burial ground, the route ahead is a mass of orange flame tinged a strange blue. Oily black smoke billows up from a small intersection, completely obliterating the road. The fire smells sharp with chemicals and our eyes water. My father approaches to within fifty metres and stops, steadying the bike with one foot. A nearby factory manufacturing moth balls has been attacked; huge chunks of snow-white camphor have been dumped in the middle of the road and set alight. There’s no way around.

My father revs the throttle, holding the bike on the clutch. He’s wearing a full-face Stadium helmet with visor, so his face is protected, but my brother and I have open-faced Centurion helmets. Twenty-five years and I still remember those helmets. Telling us to hold tight, close our eyes, and hold our breath, my father pops the clutch and guns the bike down the road, straight for the inferno. Between the piles of burning camphor and the roadside ditch is a small gap, maybe two or three feet wide and my father is aiming for this spot. In spite of his instructions I keep my eyes open, determined to experience this movie-like adventure. I jam my face down against the back of my father’s bike jacket, leaving a two-inch gap between his shoulder and my visor through which I squint. The bike hits the gap at full throttle, the world is all flame and smoke and there’s an instant of heat on my bare arms and legs as we blast through, hearts pounding, sucking in clean air on the open road beyond.

Sunset. My father and I climb onto the roof of our home and watch the columns of smoke that blot the horizon of Colombo in all directions. A few hundred metres away a tire factory is being systematically gutted and looted. Everything that isn’t nailed down is carried off. Every window is shattered. From our rooftop perch we watch Molotov cocktails thrown in and the flare of flames in the dim interior. The factory belches smoke, but doesn’t really burn. The sounds of destruction go on through the evening and into the night.

At some point in that weekend the brand new house across St John’s Way from ours is attacked and looted of every single piece of furniture and every fitting. Even the doors and roof tiles are stolen. The Indian Tamil family has already escaped. The house is built mostly of concrete and resists all attempts to burn it.

We hear that a former neighbour’s home has been burned in Mattakkuliya. It had been the first house with a TV in the whole area, and all the neighbourhood kids — including my brother and I — used to go there to watch German football. It was the parents of some of those neighbourhood kids that attacked the house.

We hear that my mother’s sister’s house in Mt Lavinia’s been attacked and burned with all of their possessions, but that she had escaped with her family and was safe. We later learn that the house was burned down by the landlord himself for the insurance. My cousin had one of the largest collections of dinky toys I’d ever seen, and that night I harbour thoughts of sneaking through the darkness to rescue all those cars and trucks.

The next evening our own landlord arrives at our backdoor, obviously agitated. He is a Sinhalese, and lives behind the house we had rented from him, and he tells us that a gang has sent him advance warning that they were coming to attack our home, since they knew his tenants were Tamil. They have assured him that they would only loot the place and leave the house undamaged. He begs my father to speak to the mob and establish the fact that he was a Burgher. The gang stands at our back fence, sarongs tucked up, shirtless, drunk. Knives and axes are jammed in their belts. They all carry heavy sticks and alavanguwas. My father faces them, equally shirtless, in old shorts, his arms thick with muscles, the image of the tough Burgher he’s trying to portray slightly spoiled by the heavy spectacles he peers through. My mother is confined to the house, but my brother and I stand behind my father. The gang is confused by my father’s obvious lack of Tamilness, but the electoral list they are armed with shows our house to be occupied by Tamils. The list is outdated, and my father tells them that we’re the new tenants. The gang leader shrugs good-humouredly and they leave, looking for fresh victims.

Colombo burns.

Cedric and I are planning to meet for a drink soon. I’ve no idea what he looks like, for I haven’t seen him since we were both little boys, twenty-five years ago, but I think it’s about time.

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July 22, 2008 - Posted by | War | , , , ,

49 Comments »

  1. Thanks David for the trip down memory lane. Not necessarily good but it does illustrate the ‘state of our nation’ and why Black July must never happen again.
    My recent lack of testosterone as usual brought tears to my eyes when I read this post.
    I must say you never cease to amaze and move me through your writing.
    Get a fucking life – I know!

    Comment by d | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  2. That was indeed moving, i was around 4 years old that time and vaguley remember details of it when our house was attacked. Thank god for some muslim neighbours we escaped unhurt..yet all what my father and mother saved over their years just went up in flames by a bunch of thugs that night… sad..this should never happen again..never..

    Comment by Niroshan | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  3. nice read…

    Comment by someone | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  4. David, have a good drink, regards to Cedric, lets try and let go of that painful past..but never forget the madness within!

    Comment by s | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  5. whow…some life experience…!

    Comment by realskullzero | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  6. awesome social rip off!!! not even born at that time but still can feel what happen to our society at that day! Thanks for the insights. everybody who supports this racism thing should know what happened at that time and the bitter consequences.

    Comment by drg | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  7. Amazing well written and brought tears to my eyes. :)

    Comment by Scrumpulicious | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  8. I read that in a gulp! It is hard to understand the mob madness, where ever it is. I hear similar stories from my parents. It is so hard to understand the discrimination. Hope you have a good reunion with your friend.

    Comment by kalusudda | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  9. [...] of a ‘83 story that different from the ones floating in the SL blogsphere at the moment. His personal ‘83 riots surrounded by comics and dinky toys (had to lookup what dinky toys are and realized it is the [...]

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  10. Great one David. Thanks.

    Comment by Deane | July 22, 2008 | Reply

  11. Sobering read David. I had family friends describe the sound of the mob like an ocean in the distance…makes chills run down my spine.

    Comment by N | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  12. I was 6 and my memories are much blurrier.
    Thanks for this great read!

    Comment by Gallicissa | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  13. Amazingly well written…I felt I was there, peaking from behind your dad,like yourself and watching the drama unfold!It’s such a sad sad part of SL history!

    Comment by indyana | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  14. [...] I’ve written enough for one blog post. The writing was draining than I ever thought. David Blacker has a more readable and coherent piece on the 83 riots. At least the words are out of my head now. Which is a fantastic relief. Perhaps that will get met [...]

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  15. woah.. intense post David. you were very observant for a 11 year old if I may say so. enjoy ur meeting with your friend.. cheers

    Comment by Whackster | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  16. Wow, a truly moving article.

    Comment by Azrael | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  17. For once there isn’t a whinge or an apologetic tinge to an ’83 post… Good one David.

    Plus you’ve surprised Appu with a post that is bereft of testosterone residue :-)

    Appu wants more!

    Comment by Gini Appu | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  18. Thank you for that, David. Very moving read. I was a wee infant, all but a couple of months old, but the stories that I hear from parents always made for a sobering experience.

    Let’s just hope that sort of madness never grips this country again.

    Comment by Theena | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  19. I remember when you related your experience of the riots, over a drink. Reading about it is a totally different thing. You’ve managed to explain it vividly, devoid of the usual emotions, which is what makes it especially beautiful. This is probably one of your best david.

    Comment by Tanya J. | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  20. moving post, very upset after reading it…..

    Comment by santhoshi | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  21. Brilliant! the fact that the context is to an extent revolving arnd teh georgraphy of Wesley made it easier to picture..my bro and i walk home to from Wesley when there was chaos, as Baseline Road gets blocked up and taking the bus wouldve been insane!

    Comment by aufidius | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  22. BTW; I am now dying for an arrack and coke Machan. Memories of Old Joes, your farewell at Old Weslyiets, EAP all just jumbled in to one incredible thirst.

    Comment by d | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  23. Loved the way you revived the whole scene into life. Born 4 years after the riots, it’s rarely that you hear of a first hand experience as this when the larger society in general remains mum on their misdoings and deny this sad part of history.
    Mount Mary has not changed much from those days and as you correctly put it and I’ve always known Wesley to have only 1 Tamil medium class for each grade for as long as I’ve been there.

    Comment by Bard | July 23, 2008 | Reply

  24. My best wishes to Cedric, and my deepest, deepest apologies.

    Comment by rajivmw | July 24, 2008 | Reply

  25. [...] Sent by the author, with original post available on his blog here. [...]

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  26. You surprise me David, I have read some of your other posts and therefore I am surprised at your sensitivity, your beautifully written prose that shows us another side. I like this David more.

    Comment by ethnichybrid | July 24, 2008 | Reply

  27. Dear Cedric and Davud,
    I am really proud of you two.The article was very well written.The suffering and pain must have been enormous.I was in UK at the time and do remember my family relating incidendts down are lane which was majority Tamil owned and occupied.May this never hapen again,we hear of similar incidents in Iraq and other war torn countries.May God Bless you and your families and Peace and Love.
    I am an OL Wesleyite and am sure Lanerolle and Orloff will be proud of you two.
    God Bless
    Shirley de Silva

    Comment by Shirley De Silva | July 24, 2008 | Reply

  28. Sorry for the spelling errors I was in a hurry and did not proof read.
    Sorry Shirley

    Comment by Shirley De Silva | July 24, 2008 | Reply

  29. Excellent post, very moving.

    Comment by Jack Point | July 24, 2008 | Reply

  30. Hey David man, good job man… I liked the dudes at Welsey ! Because, I played on the Ananda Badminton Team & we had to play the championships at your cement floored gym that looked like a church to me.Ya had a good player, a muslim guy who won the Jr Nationals in 78′ or 9′ tall dude. But, a friend in LA told me he died in a car crash in Colombo.Anyway, I wasnt there during the riots, but, my parents hid many valuebles of tamils, for which they caught a lot flak for yrs from neighbours.
    But, ya said it best man ! July 83’ruined it for many lankans. All my Burgher buddies all left Sri Lanka. Now that really sucks !

    Comment by Rajarata | July 25, 2008 | Reply

  31. A very touchy article, which brought tears to my eyes. So you guys are going to meet and enjoy yourselves soon Hah…. I dont think Cedric is interested in comics or dinky toys anymore. I think he is more on to music now wehn you meet him you will get to know.

    All the best guys!!!. By the way I am CEDRIC’s sister…..

    Comment by Annie | July 25, 2008 | Reply

  32. Thanks for all the comments, people. Annie, it’s nice to meet you.

    Perhaps there won’t be another Black July, but the hatred and racism that spawned it is still there on both sides. All it takes is a spark.

    Comment by David Blacker | July 25, 2008 | Reply

  33. Very touching and well written article. I spent several happy years living in SL a few years ago and it is extremely sobering to realise what went on in the years before. I can visualise some of the places you mention which really brings it home for me. Good luck with that drink.

    Comment by Shandy | July 30, 2008 | Reply

  34. The pic of the refugees were moving. I hope you had time to peruse through “JULY” by Anoma Rajakaruna. Even after 25 years, nothing much seems to have changed for these people. :( Sickening, sad, frustrating, shameful and disgust.

    Comment by DeeCee | August 3, 2008 | Reply

  35. Cool. It took almost a day to find this info. Thanks! Good job. :)

    Comment by Janet27 | August 4, 2008 | Reply

  36. I think the government should apologize to the Tamil people for the failure of the State to protect its own citizens in’83. The victims should be traced (wherever they are now) and compensated. What happened could not be dismissed “as if it never happened”.

    The hatred is so deep-rooted, I don’t know if we will see reconciliation in my life.

    Comment by Black Knight | August 5, 2008 | Reply

  37. DeeCee, no I haven’t been to “July”.

    Black Knight, somehow, I find that most of the hatred is felt by Sinhalese and Tamils living outside Sri Lanka. It’s as if their experiences remain frozen in amber and untempered by the context of subsequent events. I’m sure the victims of Black July still living in SL also feel loss and bitterness, and I agree that reparations must be made, but I feel that such a move will not happen until the war itself ends.

    CBK made a rather empty apology a few years ago, both to the Black July victims and those killed by the state in the second JVP insurrection.

    Comment by David Blacker | August 5, 2008 | Reply

  38. Hi David, I’m sorry to intrude on your blog — but just in case you did not know our mutual friend Dammik passed away. Had a heart attack last night.
    you probably know but this is in case you don’t…because Dhammik was to himself so probably some of his friends might not know… if they were out of the loop….
    I have no other way of contacting you.
    Rajpal Abeynayake

    Comment by Rajpal | August 20, 2008 | Reply

  39. Came across this post on groundviews, I know, really late. Just want to say it touched me deeply, and is so beautifully written. I was quite shielded from the 1983 riots because I grew up in a provincial town where the population is 99% Sinhalese Buddhist, and we went to school even though there was curfew because life seemed normal there. Saw everything only on the little black and white TV we had back then. Of course 87-89 was very different for us in terms of exposure to horror, but that is a different story…..Thank you for sharing this.

    Comment by Vivi | July 26, 2009 | Reply

    • Roshan, yeah I think it was blue.

      Vivi, thanks.

      Comment by David Blacker | August 2, 2009 | Reply

  40. Hi David

    I am late to read this post of yours but it really took my memories to college in grade 6 when we got caught up in this. It was a term test day as well if i remember and school closed early. I recall coming to school in the bus with the grand old “Amme” who used to take me and my younger brother to school and how the jewelery shops were ablaze that morning.

    By the way i think i remember your dad’s CG125 you happen to mention. Blue colour right, with tall side mirrors?

    Comment by Roshan | July 26, 2009 | Reply

  41. [...] last time this happened, I was eleven years old; an uncomprehending child. I grew up to wonder why my father who could ride a motorcycle through a wall of fire to get me home that July, hadn’t been able to stop what was done to the Tamils and to my [...]

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  44. Your post stirred up a lot of emotions. Possibly because I too am an old boy of Wesley College and my father used to take me and my brother to school on his Honda CG125. I have some really good memories of going to school on it and I was fortunate I guess for not having to live through July 83. Reading this while we are starting to witness vestiges of the same hate and racism manifest itself has angered me. The BBS needs to be stopped.

    Comment by PravNJ | April 2, 2013 | Reply

  45. [...] last time this happened, I was eleven years old; an uncomprehending child. I grew up to wonder why my father who could ride a motorcycle through a wall of fire to get me home that July, hadn’t been able to stop what was done to the Tamils and to my country. [...]

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  46. [...] last time this happened, I was eleven years old; an uncomprehending child. I grew up to wonder why my father who could ride a motorcycle through a wall of fire to get me home that July, hadn’t been able to stop what was done to the Tamils and to my [...]

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  47. Brilliant piece machan. I’m a Sri Lankan, and believe in the Islamic faith. It remains to be seen, if I will become a statistic.

    Comment by Zainul Mahas | April 3, 2013 | Reply

  48. I can do no better than to echo the person posting before me – this is indeed a brilliant piece. I don’t think any of us who lived through the day would have forgotten exactly what we did, and how we got home from wherever we were. I was at school, mid term test – math i think. suddenly the teacher tells me that my parents have come to pick me up. I was in year 2F. we managed to get a bus to Borella and from there walked all the way to Battaramulla; my father carrying me every now and then when I complained. That was the extent of my woes that day- and I was too young to comprehend the woes of others who suffered unspeakable things. This post made me cry. Because the way things are going, we may be on the verge of something unspeakable again.

    Comment by Madhuka | April 3, 2013 | Reply


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